Long course training legs, uggggg

some days and weeks you have it and some days/weeks you don't. This is my last week before a recovery week and race and I've worked out 7hrs in 3 days and I have a 4 hr day tomorrow and its only thursday. My FTP bike on tuesday fell short a bit, my T run sucked, my swim was ok today, felt fine after 3500 but my 8 mile run felt like my legs were lead, I averaged an ok 8:40 per mile pace, my HR was high zone 1, low zone 2 but my legs felt like tree stumps, not much turnover going on. So of course my mind is doing games on me, " oh, you suck, your running is pitiful, why do you keep doing this to yourself, just become an aquabiker", " will I beable to run off the bike?", " what can I actually do with rested legs?"

It sucks doubting yourself, I trained for ironman last year but differently. I am logging more time on the bike and run front which makes for more tired legs. Its just when your workouts don't go as planned you get pretty bummed out and psychologically that sucks for me. I'm not saying that I'm doing badly, I guess in my mind I want my body to do more and maybe I"m asking it to do more than it can do, I'm not sure.

Anyway, I'm a bit nervous for my duathlon next weekend, with the swim not a part of the race its run/bike/run, so this is just as much of a psychological race for me as a physical one, struggling to be in the front on the run when its not my strength may zap my legs a bit on the bike and then to run at the end, its all new to me, I've never completed one so race strategy I don't have. I hope coachie doesn't mind me asking him tons of questions and I certainly hope I do myself proud and my coach who has worked really hard with me this year. My first real race with him and hopefully a good start to the season. Anyway, hubby is at the Sox, kids are in bed, time for mommy to read and retire, long bike with T run tomorrow.