Who Am I?

So as I picked my daughter up from school today I was driving down the street and noticed the middle school kids getting out of school. What I observed was packs of girls walking together and then some individual girls walking alone with their heads down almost seeming like they didn't want to be noticed ( sorry, I tend to notice things like that). I instantly feel bad for these girls, wondering whether or not they have friends or why are they alone, why are they walking with their heads down like they are ashamed or something. I really don't know why they are walking alone these are just my thoughts....

This brings me back to my high school days when I was not the popular kid but also not the , " not so popular kid either", I kind of mixed in the middle with the jocks and the cheerleaders, the band and the hockey players, I never really found my niche. I can honestly say, that I felt alone a lot of the time, feeling like I was jumping from groups of different friends each year of high school, never knowing where I fit in. I don't know why I bring this up today but I guess seeing those girls alone today just made me reflect on who I was back then and who I am today.

Today, I am a wife of almost 12 years, a mom of 4 crazy but wonderful kids a good friend ( " I hope") and an athlete. I'm most proud of the first three I mentioned but with my blog I am going to discuss me finally turning into an athlete.

I feel I have finally found out who I am, I am an athlete, maybe not a genetically gifted one but an athlete who loves sport who works hard and who can't wait for the next challenge. I know I have mentioned this numerous times in the past, that if only I could of taken my drive now and put it towards sports when I was younger who knows, but you can't go back and maybe I wouldn't be who I am today if that were the case. Maybe my path was to become one later in life and to show people, especially women and children that you can get better with age, you can get faster, you can get fitter, you can be happier. I was never happy with myself, my body, my performances ever as a child, today I am, but I am most happy about my discipline and desire to be better, my work ethic and just me. I like being happy, is that corny? Maybe its the endorphins from my 10 mile run today, I don't know, but I felt good, I'm smiling.

I'm an Athlete, finally, maybe this year this athlete will do something special, maybe I can inspire a child or another friend to be better to feel better about themselves, maybe this is why it took me to be 41 to know who I am.

For the Athletes out there my 10 mile run splits today were: AVG pace 8:09 10miles, 1:21:29

My best 10 mile race 2 years ago was an 8:05 pace.

mile 1-8;39

mile 2-7:58-feeling frisky

mile 3 7:59-are you kidding this isnt a tempo run

mile 4 8:05

mile 5 8:17- did I say hills-oops

mile 6 8:10

mile 7 8:03- thank god for flats

mile 8-8:04

mile 9-8:10

mile 10-8:07